Thought no. 12

the people are fine,

it's a governmental crime,

for different people to fight over a dime,

when our voices sound just like a mime.

get taken away and put behind bars,

for speaking your mind,

they think you took it too far,

Far, far, man i think thats too far,

being unfair, that shit leads to war.

war and war, it leaves people so weary,

you got widows and orphans getting all teary,

all for the sake and the love of a country,

idols being idolized like Scotty McCreery.

martyrs litter the streets,

it smells like the pits,

we're back in '42 in camps with no place to sit,

man oh man, how did we come to this?

they fought in '57,

for our people to be even,

so that when they went to heaven,

our people could be citizens.

what happened to all the ideals of the past?

seems like somebody took it and sat on it with their ass,

and that we all forgot about it as time passed,

now we just fighting for power so we can get some ass.

jika anda tak faham, ku cuba melayu,

adakah kita semua tidak malu,

tentang cara kami menghormati menantu,

dan apa yang telah kami buat untuk Negaraku?

so here we are with a musical prose,

standing with my people with a folded arm pose,

we're a voting bloc with connections to those,

who speak the truth, not with some stupid ass hos.

Ah and so here we are again

Welcome welcome ladies and gentlemen.

Esteemed guests and captive audience for the next, oh wait, they're gone now. well, it was nice having your atten...there it goes again.

You ever find it hard to concentrate when someone is saying something, especially when they're just like mumbling to themselves.

It's hard man. It's like the guys going, "what would you do if you had a time machine? because here's what i would do..."

then you're thinking to yourself, "man, my balls are really starting to itch. oh wait, he's saying something, nope, no wait, he's just talking to himself again."

I talk to myself. yeah, its perfectly normal.

No, not that kinda talk to myself, where I say everything's going to be fine. I'm not that times emotional.

I'm more of having a conversation with yourself. where you say something, and the other guy says something else completely random and you're like, alright, wtf, lets go with it.

sometimes these conversations are so profound, its like you're talking a spiritual guide or something and other times, you take a second and think to yourself, what the hell did he just say, why am i even friends with this guy, oh yeah wait...

you know whats crazy though, i mean, besides the fact that a guy can have a nonsensical conversation with himself out of sheer boredom.

whats crazy is that people in mental institutions, probably don't really need to be there.

i mean, if you think about it, all it is are these bunch of people having a different view on life.

if we did that to all people who had a different view on life, we'd all be locked up in there, you know.

its like, some of these guys...and girls, lets not discriminate. i mean, i can be rude, but i sure dont discriminate.

all they have is a different view on life. like, this lady can imagine having a new kid every day. i mean, sure childbirth is hell and popping one out once a day is literally amazing, but hey, its her point of view and by golly george, if she wants one, there are a strangely overwhelming number of people who want to give one to her.

heck, if you found a number of people who shared her point of view, you could solve 2 of the worlds problems.

yeah but suffice to say the reason we're all sitting down here isn't necessarily for the humour.

its for the seriousness and the thought provoking madness that doth occur in thine minds.

such as, how we're all adjectives.

i'm fat, short, and ugly. i'm also a great liar.

see? its all to do with absolutes, that we're one thing so we can't be the other.

i mean, i can be fat, not saying i'm not. but i'm not as fat as...a whale. thats an expression by the way, look it up, its called literature you uneducated bastard.

short? next to a midget i could be yao ming.

ugly? well, yeah on bad hair days, nah i'm just messing with you, i have no hair. hence, i have no bad hair days and i'm just ugly all the time.

and also, if you think about it, people who are constantly happy most of their lives are probably psychos.

i mean, we're all entitled to bad days. sadness, depression. it'd be amazing if you got hit by a truck and you'd still be smiling. you'd be put in a mental hospital and eventually turn into a psychopathic killer constantly taunting batman.

we're all just human, lets accept we have bad days, post it on facebook, wait for replies about how we shouldn't be depressed and tell people thanks because what we really don't want to be is sad AND alone.

20/12/2012

As I write this, within a 12 month period the world has been rocked by magnitude defying natural disasters.

Earthquakes, tsunamis, inept corrupt politicians, drought, floods and people spewing prophecy about when the world will end.

Actually, to be more specific, human life may end but the world itself will supposedly implode upon itself at some point or the other or the sun will eventually turn into a black hole thus rendering life in its vicinity pretty much guaranteed death, in like 4 billion years.

Since thats going to happen anyway, and we're all going to die some time, why spend time worrying about it when life has so many more things for you to worry about?

Also, in every catastrophe, there is opportunity.

Eg. South Korean - North Korean stand off, currency dips, stabilizes, goes up. Or at least that would have been the theory.

Government losses of RM51 million for low cost housing over 3/5 years? It means that if managed properly, business's stand to make profits in excess of RM51 million via investment in low cost housing. This may pale in comparison to other large developments but its mostly to illustrate the point.

In fact, as I write this now, in Google News an article just popped up saying the Yen has increased in anticipation of the inflow of foreign funds into the country.

And other after effects of these are an increased need for insurance where instead of being sold, it will be bought.

Religious institutions will probably see an increase in their membership numbers.

Fire and rescue services will garner more attention as well as attention to engineers who had the foresight and design mastery to build monuments that survived this disaster.

More research into detecting earthquakes (or you could just build a dog translator, if thats easier), medical supplies will report increased profits, a round of stimulus to rebuild infrastructure, demand for bereavement services.

Within every negative event lies opportunity.

And that should apply to us all in our daily lives as well.

On an unrelated note, i have nothing else to say.

Test-i-c-u-lar

on the same train of thought of not forgetting anything at this moment i am:

at Berjaya Times Square, other wise known as home.

on a 13' MacBook.

using uMobile that costs RM68 per month but can actually receive a signal from this height.

am thinking when to call my property manager this week.

am considering other reasonable places to stay.

looking for a contractor to upkeep my apartment.

grateful that i had RM3/kg laundry for 4 months but it's over now. maybe RM5 or RM7.

followed by the thought that UniLodge was cheaper.

wishing i had a car, point A point B nothing fancy.

more phones had xenon flash.

am grateful for good colleagues, friends and especially Love.

wishing i was with said Love.

looking for a good duffel/sling bag.

looking to purchase toe socks.

planning to see a dentist for the first time in 1.5 years.

thinking that that's pretty bad.

probably going to get myself a flu vaccination soon.

having no clue to who's going to win this year's World Cup.

thinking thats a sentiment shared by almost everybody.

not sure where this post is actually going.

hoping that everything i wrote is actually grammatically correct because i'm lazy to check.

currently an idealistic young man who someday wants a family and be the man that they need him to be.

really hoping for a stay-at-home job with a few meetings at the office once in a while.

praying to be a good husband, father, friend.

not sure if thats what i want on my tombstone although i'll be dead by then so i probably won't care, and even if i did, what could i do about it?

funny.

or not funny.

amusing myself by typing randomly.

boring you now.

going to stop.

Thought no 1988

i realize that if you don't write things down you'll probably have a tendency to forget them later.

like so many mid-life crisis' all it takes is you lifting up a coffee mug to your lips one day and realizing there are so many things in life you haven't done yet.

so what we should be doing is having a mid-life crisis once a week to avoid a mid-life crisis. make a list of the things you've always wanted to do...and do them. every little random thing or thought or card or words that you've always wanted to have.

life is a temporary state whereas death is permanent. enjoy the time you have, do as much as you can, repeat other people's words although they are cliches if you find them to be true.

i thought of this as i stood in front of an elevator waiting and watching for the double doors to open and not knowing whats behind them. it could be anyone, anything.

life isn't short. its temporary. like a holiday. if you go on a vacation, you're not going to be doing the same stuff you'd be doing back home would you? (maybe some of you would but in that case you are wrong to do so because you might as well have stayed at home but if its what you're already doing then good for you because you enjoy/have to do so. remember, vacations aren't always about leaving the house, we can arguably basically take a vacation whenever we log into facebook. you don't have facebook? discussion for another time)

also, even television (all hail and praise the entertainment invention preceding the internet) albeit a bit paradoxically has placed a showing of "Live" on some of its sports shows. How positive!

Thought no. yxrt

I've heard of this phenomena called "Tough Love".

Its where you're intentionally mean to the people you love to

(i)toughen them up or

(ii)to make them angry at you

so that

(a)they strive to better themselves

(b)pull themselves out of the funk that they are currently in.

But as with all things, this is a heavily laden double edged sword.

The person you practice tough love on should never know that you love them and are doing this for their good until someone else points it out to them.

You have to be able to tolerate this person hating you so that they become stronger.

You sacrifice their love in order for them to gain strength.

Is this logical?

Does it make sense?

Has it worked in your life?

How many people have you been angry at that were actually doing what they did out of love?

Anger in one's heart does help one move past grief as the 5 stages are denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance.

Anger helps one steel ones heart from more pain and pushes people to strive harder to prove someone else's statement wrong.

Anger for too long can lead to suffering and grief later as well as end up pushing people away.

So I guess what I'm trying to say is take some time out of your life.

Reflect on how you've been treated by others. Think about what they did.

How it made you feel.

Then think about how it made them feel. Think about their motives.

Did it help you in the long run? Was it just a small incident? Did it change your life forever?

Is there a lesson in there that you learnt from?

I mean, just take some time out to think. You may be surprised.

Thought no. What?

ahoy there dear readers? are you ready!
... i was thinking

about how ive' only been working in actuality for a week and, yet i feel as if i could get used to this
. i mean not to say but you know,.,.,.

jobs are like relationships they require effort time and nurturing if they are to love you back i mean take for example a parent who does the utmost that they can for their children would expect the child to love them in return or to at least understand the effort theyve put in but unfortunately
this isnt always the way it turns out similarly in our jobs we can do our damnest throw and pour our heart and souls into it and yet still not get an emotional reward out of it but honestly how many of us are doing our job for the money and would rather get paid for just bumming and lazing around at home

lets look at a phrase that has been used often through time .,,...()''- i want to love my job
want defines something that isnt necessary for survival but more towards the lines of if its convenient and doesnt require much effort and its for my own passion and enjoyment
love is an emotion and even if you were never in any meaningful relationships it requires effort as mentioned above understanding from both parties and a lot of hard work although i know this is just a substitute word for effort but hey it promotes emphasis because more people understand the word hard work than they do effort and its something you hear often so you know it must be true
my job refers to an employment of some kind where you perform and carry out certain tasks mental or manual or sometimes a combination of both in return for renumeration omg fancy word for earnings wages salary pay pocket money pittance etc
for some people their job is a large part of their lives and for some not so much but in any case if you have a job its a part of your life ...........()(),,,,,,,,''' youre receiving financial compensation for it and now you want emotional compensation as well
what other form of compensations do you require in this world i am not fully aware but im sure that unless your job is your life it shouldnt be your one stop shop for all your needs and frankly when you say something like want it indicates to me that your needs are already being met elsewhere
and for those of you whom your job is your life and that you are so emotionally attached to it and youre still unhappy with it well its time you rethink your relationship and see if that relationship is still giving you what you want or if its time for you to move on i mean 43% of marriages end up in divorce most of the time from a lack of communication or effort so think carefully before you do it im not advocating .....,,,()'' quitting im advocating thinking.

what the hell am i talking about i dont know and for those of you who have been paying attention just think about it and see if you can make any sense of it it sounds a lot more organized in my head....()''!?